Dreams of the Past
Well, it’s been a while. The time was tough for me. It’s been over a year since I wrote my last article (I shouldn’t be so irregular, XD). I don’t know why it feels like it’s been a long, long time since then. Life was different then and it’s different now. Back then I was a 20-year-old with high hopes and high dreams but now that doesn’t seem to be the case. What happened in the last year? I know I said that it’s been a long time, but it also seems like it was just yesterday. Am I losing the strength? Am I losing the patience? What is it?
So, within that time frame a lot has happened, I mean a lot. I do not want to bore you people with my problems, everyone has problems of their own, right? But I figured out a lot of things within this time frame.
During this time, I got an opportunity to create a few study materials and drawings for a local school. I mostly drew kindergarten stuff. I wondered back then, “What kind of dreams do these kids have?” Then my own childhood just flashed by. “What were my dreams?”, I asked myself. I remember, when I was in kindergarten I had only a few things to worry about — All I wanted was to impress my teachers with my art, drive a sportscar when I become “big”, and play all day long. And of course, I forgot to mention, eat a lot of chocolates. Later when I got into teens, I became an Astrophile, I wanted to discover the universe or maybe I could go to space. I also wanted to travel the whole world. There was a time when I wanted to become a billionaire. I also wanted to develop and tell new stories to people. I guess, you too had a lot of dreams like this, right? Everyone has one. But the important question is that whether these dreams get fulfilled or not.
Even the last time I wrote on Medium, I had a dream to become one of the best designers or story tellers this world has ever seen, have a healthy body with a peaceful mind and enough money to ride a sportscar or receive a ticket to Mars from Elon Musk. Back then, I designed an ideal version of myself and was thriving to achieve that.
However, now it feels like I have accomplished nothing. I got confused in the way and currently I am still trying to figure out. While doing those drawings for the kids, I asked myself, “What have I been doing for all these years?”, “How did these 20 years of my life just passed away?”, “Will I be able to achieve those dreams?”. Most people suggest that these dreams are just mere diversions from reality, but are they?
Well, to be honest, one thing is for sure, I do not want to ask these questions when I get old. Moreover, even if I fail, I do not want to regret that I didn’t try. I might be able to achieve to earn a few bucks to lead a simple life, drive a Maruti or a Hyundai, perhaps a scooter, or watch a documentary about universe in an old LED TV. The thing is, I do not have anything to lose. And while I have nothing to lose, I might as well go that extra mile to achieve my dreams. Writing this article might be the first step after all this time.
This article is a bit long. But in my defense, I hadn’t wrote anything for more than a year. :P ……. Thank You all for reading! :)
